Ownership

antique, classic, vintage

I really really like this

when we fond with something

no matter is object or people

doesn't mean that we have to own it ....

I am still learning this philosophy which I just thought of ...........

which since i was young .. My mum she is really kind that everytime when we struggling with choosing item and ask for her opinion , she would answer us" buy it if you like it " so have two different effect : as for my elder sister would buy things that she really really really love that object no matter how much it cost and she won't regret after that and as for me I will buy according to my emotion, maybe at that point of time I really like it without any hesitation I would just buy,,,,However when that object belong to me , become mine.... find that :" nothing so great anymore, so what's next?? " ......... haih ... seriously I find that I was so bad and so spoilt, gotta change. I think this philosophy of life applicable when we facing various choices and struggling with making decision. we kill, sweat, tears to get something that we want ... so what ????????? does it really satisfied you, or it make you a more greedy person that ask for more .......

current status: fatigue, tiring

word for the day: OVERCOME

unstoppable genre: JAZZY ..

simple

today still mine day, wake up in the morning finally could see the cloud .clearly clean skies, Uhhmmm so nice .. So decided to take public transport alone !!!! Let's go take bus !!! I plan to take bus then got to penang hill ..but I think I was at the wrong terminal and I don't know what is the num to go to penang hill..... so just stop wherever I like ..... maybe many people would say I'm crazy. but when I am alone and really emotional , I won't think so much, I just go. I still have to learn to take photos of stranger with consent...I afraid if I take candid it will offended themThanks to the bus uncle, actually I don't have small change .. I gave him 10 bucks expected him to give me back the changes, but he don't accept and ask me what are the small coins I have, I just have 50 cents instead of RM1.......so he accepted it. when I wanna off the bus I still remember he smile and wave to me .... Awwww... I really like to talk to stranger like that. Seriously when I am alone, I discover the human nature more. Occupation, culture, human behavior, way of communication, reaction. The unique and different side of human nature. I really afraid of taking their portraiture .... I realized that human tend to judge and have strong self-awareness when we first saw stranger . however, every time when I met stranger, they are rarely harmful or bad people .. I strongly trust that in everyone heart lives an angel.

Now sitting at a coffee shop reading and posting blog .... really like my life man .. freedom....leisure.... except the interruption from the construction noise seriously that really annoyed me .... GAGAGAGAAAGAG.... so decided to come out from the house .. so actually I actually can't stay at home like a good girl do .... GOOD DAY.

you are not alone ...

right after exam ....here's holidays .....after exam .. everyone would say party time ...

but now I don't feels like socialize ......I just want to have time for myself ...don't feels like having any interaction with anyone.. don't feel like talking, don't feel like smiling ...just numb and stone expression on my face ..... doing couples of thing alone ..don't pick up any call .. don't reply any message .. is just simple "mine" day ......

while wandering around, heard this song :" You are not alone" byMJ ..

My face put on a smile =)

I know I am alone but I am not feeling cold inside..I just want some space for myself

. Have sometime just for yourself .... yourself alone

You'll in love with that feeling trust me ...

" You are not alone, I am here with you " ...MJ

friendship .. some are on the board .. some are not

after cooling down after conflict ...i am blaming myself again ..friendship might be significant or nothing .. .....I think it means something for me in friendship when my friend see my needs and give courage or need to help... I don't want a beneficial friendship .. I am not a parasites ...........the true friend will seriously touch your heart ..... not through how many times you guys have been hanging out or how much you all spend time ...... An authentic friendship touch your heart .... through how they make you feels ... the sincere side of them ....... just like a child simply trusting and give what they have in their hands ....... ............... friendship is no like before you are leaving.. give you a last farewell at the airport.. or they came in your farewell party have a shallow talk ..... but you do not presence in any part in their memory ...... is about heart to heart touching ....... I've learn from someone who don't appreciate friendship ... I could see how lucky I am now at least I know who my true friends are ......I am not a "friendship devotee" however I gotta learn how to become one ...

tribulation

There is always a way out ........ whenever there is an dead end for man, human to seek for God, no matter what religion that we strongly believe in .. as long as it works and it lead to an open door ............. especially when someone is really sick in your family....we'll see the light in the darkness.

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?

Shall trouble or hardship or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

(romans 8:35)

unpleasant moment

life is so fragile ...... so brutal ...... vulnerable .......

currently many things especially disease and sickness intrude into my family members

especially something big like cancer ......the 4th phase I guess .

Suddenly I fear of death and sickness .....

I fear that people around me would just leave .. or I would just left ....and that's it ......

haih .....life is just like flower.......

I think the flower would give thanks everyday saying :

" Thank God I'm still alive, I still can gasp a breath that you given."

It's because of grace ......it make me want to lurve God annd myself even more .....

p.s:" I've never seen my father sigh for so long ..... and upset .....he never look so pathetic before. No matter what happen do not lose hope, dad"

no matter what everything is beautiful in its time .. i hope i could be optimism ...

I should do something

everytime when I watched one cantonese drama, I would think of my siblings ....

sometimes I do really get upset wonder why she want to start a new life there ...

struggling ........family pressure thing and I got my own dream to pursue summore ......

sometimes i just wonder what's next for me ??? isn't family or I could be self-fish for once ...

i would tend to hide from problem ..the truth about mine future and family thing...I know my mum and dad is not that young anymore .... I can't just go and pursue what I want and left all my mom hard work and just go like my sister ..............although I don't have a big dream .. all I hope in my entire life is just .... go and explore .......

I really miss those time three of us keep fighting, chasing each other around the house, shouting at each other and my mum would just said :" keep fighting see who are the one die first " .. ahhahaaha .. its really not easy to have three girls in house ....... especially we are loud .. extrovert !!!!!

who will know what kind of person you would become next time ....sometimes i felt like doing something for the family ..... sometimes would love myself more than family ......

I am changing, everyone does ..........one thing I am very sure of ......" I am a blessed child..growing up in this "TEE " family, God has given me more than enough "

Click the time

when we were small we always chasing after "time" hope that we want to get older that time ..

do you still remember .. sometimes is really hard to find the leaf behind memory because we concentrate on what we are chasing right now ...

let's think about that, what I chasing after is that important ..???

when we are young .. we keep asking " what's now.. what's next ??"

when we are getting much more elder.. we probably would ask " what for ??"

when you wake up every morning, time has already slipped away without noticing.

all the priority currently seems so precious and important ..

especially you chasing after ... yea I agree that when I am still young ..

accept challenges, make the most I could be, self-discover...

think back yesterday, the year before, the past ....

i discover not only time has slipped away, but something more important I'd miss ....

A time where i should say my gratitude ..a time where I should lend a hand ..

a time for others, a time for ministry....a time to learn more ....

no body could chased back yesterday, what we could do is just about today.. the next minute and tomorrow ..

make the most you can today, for the family, friends, companion .. because of we've missed that out is hard to go back ... your beloved mom, dad, grandpa, grandma, sister,childhood friend bestfriend would definately accept your excuses " BUSYNESS " .. because love covers all.......... without judgement they would just be considerate and thoughtful ......

now I am still young, but I've always remind myself ......don't live a self-centered life chasing after emptiness..gather moments .. not gather fame and money .......

Simple peaceful

Peaceful inside simply means serenity inside ...... calm, tranquil...

Leave behind all the hurry and business

get close to the nature ..

ocean and the skies ..

you will feels peaceful inside

every burden seems lighten up ...

Authentic

I have always asking for an authentic friendship. All shallow talks, greetings, artificial politeness makes me wonder "Is he/ she my friend????" I do not how to answer that ...........

People tends to wear masks to keep their guard up..... I'd just learn and understood the meaning in it right now......... pathetic....I've noticed I am under that categories too ...Is that a necessity ???? all the shallow talks, artificial pretending to be nice, wearing a mask where you want others to see ... Are all those necessary in real life??? finally, since after I graduated from high school, right now I've learn that everyone tend to act as if everything is rosy in their life, why ??........ is that a choice or that is a must to act like that ?

All I know is that all these attitudes are the death of a real friendship .......

All i know is that if I am seeking for an artificial friendship just making myself to feels good or looking good by wearing a mask that I don't even know who am I, I rather to find for a true friendship.

I'm still learning to express myself to friend, no matter are the hurts, fears, worries..

"open your heart to trust and you'll experience an authentic friendship "........

Given a chance to let my friends walk intside my lil world, that's the reason I become a blogger .

Suck it upp

Suck it up est with all the hardship, struggling .........Gagagagaga

In the midst of busy....

I won't fall

I won't lose my heart .....

I know why i am doing this ...

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immortal

desire ........ is just like a flower, it have thorn we might hurt ourselves.

after all the fulfillment.. the flower dying... are desires all you ever wanted ??

nothing is immortal ......... beauty, desires, fulfillment ..........it never last .....

Frustration, exclusive workload, pressure it could make me to become a person who did not embrace gratitude for everything, I could say I don't like it .........and I hate myself being like that

when I kept whining, I'll miss some beautiful and glooming moment ....

All i could do it is pray and try to analyze what are those thing get on my nerve so easily and the reason why ..........

I mustn't whine and get ready, get set, and go !!!!

sometimes i don't understand what am I striving for and keep searching .........

to where? .... desires, anger is that important anymore ??

Delight yourself in the LORD

and he will give you the desires of your heart.

happiness seems uneasy

My thought are falling apart into shattered pieces

i've tried so hard

but nothing seems really matter

frustration seems easily get on my nerve

all I desperate for is just real joy seal in the heart

and a big smile on the face ..........

I know everything would be fine ..

what I want is just a brand new day with

a new change of thought and a big smile on my face