Saturday, October 31, 2009

carved

" Some memories are meant to keep
frame the beautifulness of the time of blossom
right inside of every heart i'll there is something is still there
which are unforgettable "

maybe I still .. maybe I am not ...
sometimes you notice that love is just like a wind, the breeze flew across ..
you'll miss the feeling, felt like missing something somehow in someway
just that little something .....
it is that special someone that is so unforgettable just across your mind
your eye gaze will become soften, maybe face put on a smile or a frown
that space it is still there maybe I am waiting ... waiting
maybe its foolish but I am not struggling anymore ..
I don't think that is hoping .. but it is just like watching a flower waiting for the time bloom
Maybe a lot of people would just come across my mind
but deep inside our heart
we know there is someone, someone special one who belongs to the heart
So i don't force myself to forget certain thing ever again because that's was bitter .
so just let it be .. put in the deepest corner ...
paint some color inside the corner of my heart ...

instead of whining


nothing can cover up the flaws or the imperfection
no matter in what way
physical, mentally, responsible thing, academic thing
once you know it ..
suck it up and make a change ..

Monday, October 26, 2009

the ungrateful one

Grateful from the deepest of my soul.

everytime when I ask you'll give me the best than I ever asked for.
everything, when I reflects back I know you'll do your best and give me the rest.
never ever let me down whatever I asked for anything because you just eagerly wanna see my
happy smile. =)
you all not just eagerly wanna fulfill me wants and needs, but to fulfill the love inside me.
never ever you all disappoint me ...but I've always fails you all.
I have done nothing.nothing to show my gratitude.
Thanks for taking all my childish temper, uncontrollable emotional, unthoughtful frustration, and unpleasant manners.
It's not just material stuff, but given me your heart
the patience, tolerance, sacrifices.. and love
I don't think that is spoilt but is your thoughtfulness and never failing love that touches me.
I have more than enough ....
let the word "FAMILY" become an abbreviation but not just simply a vocab.

" Thanks for God give me the greatest Gift of all, my parents, my family. Lord, bless my parents with a good health and pray for in the future and now, learn to how to put my gratitude and love into action. Teach me and show me how to love.""

Saturday, October 24, 2009

flattering mouth works ruin

"Practice what you preach "

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

talebearer


"As iron sharpens iron,
So a man sharpens the countenance of his friend.
(proverbs 27:17)"

Sometimes I will think that isolation from others maybe the best choices not to hurt others or either myself ....
But everything need to go through something that against our will to discover yourself and others ........human may disappoint us, but it's the matter of heart.
True friend will always tell me the ugly truth, ugly truth about myself
not the thing that I wanna hear, contradicting, they are they one who scold you, makes you upset but they are also the one who up-lifting you.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Agape in greek .....


On the night before you died, you prayed for me, that I would be as close as a heartbeat to the Father (John 17:22).

On the night before you died, you called me friend, no longer a servant, because you’d taught me everything the Father taught you (John 15:15).

On the night before you died, you came to me with bloody sweat dripping down your face and arms because you’d stared straight into the future with eyes wide open at the truth, while I hid behind the covers of my deep, denial sleep.

On the night before you died, you shook me and seemed to ask, “Can’t you watch with me? Come beside me, friend, and wait the time with me” (Matthew 26:40, author paraphrase).

On the night before you died, I saw a man intimate with sorrow, but also the Word become man, “the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth” (John 1:14 NIV).


On the night before you died, you understood my struggle, but never demanded that I understand yours. You whispered, “I know how it is, brother, the spirit is willing, but the body is weak” (based on Matthew 26:41 NIV).


On the night before you died, I saw you, friend, so full of sorrow, yet, on that night you proved to be the better friend, still the teacher, still the brother, still thinking of me above all your own needs, the Lamb of God on mission to redeem faulty friends, like me.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Passion Resonance

" Things don't always turns out that way"
Let my Passion sound boldly ..
no matter is photography or music.
Maybe hiding or it is a fear ..
fear of failure or unaccpetance.from
let the failure and critism keeps my passion moving on
things will soon unfold
faith than give me the courage dare to do great things
it will help me find my wings ..



Thursday, October 8, 2009

Dirty Little Secret ........
everyone posses dirty little secret
which you would never tell anyone .......

Saturday, October 3, 2009

reflex


there's a lot in my mind .........
how i wish I could be simple ....
seriously life ain't easy as you grown up
there's a lot of truth that you have to face
no matter is ugly or pretty ...
reality is yet still ugly
Sometimes just hate myself for hesitating and struggling too much
maybe human need lies to cover their ugly truth inside them which never make known to others.
when you noticed that you incapable to achieve your expectations, of course it will you'll immediate "lost" for a while ..... thinking " what am I doing now?"
i'll always pat myself telling myself: " I would be fine"