shadow in every corner ..

Currently get to know that your status there..we never alone under all the busy city light .. never .. ...but hey look .. that's the road you've chosen you have to be happy no matter what .. Wherever I go .. I hope that I could see a shadow of you I'm serious .. whenever Where I go .. it reminds me ..it gives me hope but every time i get a empty hope .. i'm a liar to myself ..Have you ever had that person that you can't seem to stop thinking about...and you don't know why?
I just wish all the very best to you I will smile and wish you=) Maybe i'm just a greedy person that hope that everything wish under my expectation but thing doesn't go through what we want .. the connection would just slip away that fast time would heal everything I wish i'm a person that could never look back a person that wouldn't hold on anything back maybe i'm just being foolish .. foolish...
I wonder why .I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi to me, or even smile, because I know even if just for a second, ... I crossed your mind.....
but i'll walk away and keep moving on nicely..In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life:" it moves on". so why should I and frown and keep hoping for a emptiness ..

"It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. "

p.s: I need time to blind fold myself
i do know all these happen is meant to be

Free from hidden sins

Sin is just outside the door .. take it or leave it
anger? frustration? Lazyness? Loss of self control? being mean? wicked thought ?
we have the authority and freedom to step on it ..
do you listen to the voice inside knocking ?
saying " hello, this is wrong !!"
the conscience inside us
which christian call it Holy Spirit that guild us

Who can discern his errors? How can I know all the sins lurking in my heart?
Forgive my hidden thoughts. Cleanse me from these hidden faults.
Keep your servant from deliberate sins!
Don’t let them control me.
Then I will be free of guilt and innocent of great sin.
( Psalms 19:13-14)

Priceless investment

Phew ! after Christmas finally i could call it a break ..
Ahem finally I have some leisure time for myself
go to shopping to pampered myselves ..

.. But I spent my time most with friends and family
Priceless investment of time
This month is a good chance to meeting friends and family
and is a good chance to express how much you miss them and appreciate them
a chance to express my love and gratitude =)
Thanks to all friends in my life
I know that I am not alone
and I have something to hold on .. is you all =)
Thanks for spending time and money
Include some of my lame joke and foolish act
maybe my stupidity will add some laughter in your life
Hahaha .. but I am really slow .. we call it ritard (RETARD) in music term
I do really have a great time
I love this season of december =)

I miss my friend and lecturer in College huhuhuhu =<
esp Fern, Dee !!!!
and of course the annoying Ian ..hahahaaha

Look up and smile

I don't want to frown any more =(
I want my smiley face
to face the sunshine of the day every day with a big smile
I need to keep moving on
I felt so awful when I was in a bad mood
it is so ugly when I frown
everything seems so colourless and dreadful
I want too see the vibrant color of life
and I want to see the vibrant face in every faces that I met
Life is still good ..he is so good ..
SMILE =)

IS time to let go

..................Let go is a way near to happiness .............
"Let go the balloon boy "

Everything and anything will change
some thing that I've always holding on
My thought is a mess now ..
and the sadness suddenly filled up the air ..
Sudden Despair ..
Wet beside my cheek and eyes
Why .??
I wondering why?
Why this happen
is there no other choices
or because of someone ..
I don;t know anymore ..
isn't because of the one imp in your heart
or just because you leaving just an option ..
I .... am speechless
I think is time to let go
and keep moving with my life
I think is time to let go ..
just like letting go the balloon into the sky
so that once again I would have my freedom ..
I laugh at my own stupidity ..
I want to cast down every thought ..
you'r just a shadow that passes by
it could be good that you leave
so that I could stop hoping
Is ok that you have to go away
I want my freedom .......
It's time now ..
I should smile and walk away because it is a relief ..
to let go ...

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go." - Herman Hesse

=)

Ching ... doraemon time reflector

Today while I was running on the treadmills
Some past has been pop out in my mind
Reflected back some stupid things and the funniest thing that I'd ever done ..
Something that I'd done that I feel like
" Eww .. That's not me !! "
but hello ..*grin* " that what you did !! "
Hehehe .. I will laugh at my stupidity act and some immature act and recall back the wrong doing that I had done so that in the future .. I won't do that We tend to change from day to day no matter what ..
You can't be who you were yesterday but
You can choose to be who you wanna be for tomorrow
So ... Goodbye the stupidity and the past
I want a revolution =)
In fact the stupid and dumb act that we've done really make us laugh at ourselves ..

Monkey ... Big and small 1 ...


Okay how should I start ..
Erm .. a lot of story in sarawak for 10 days ..
Ahem Ahem
I was thinking for the last couples of day
how should I rearrange and flash back what I had done in Sarawak
till now I still can't using words to describe ...

Okay ..
This Mission trip is AWESOME !!
and I miss there !
I've learn a lot a lot
and the Mission trip
bring to aaaa ... revolution in me

I need time to flash back
and dig out the pieces of pieces of memories and put it in words ..
Ahem ..
I will try
give me some time ..

I miss them !!! I really do !!
my lovely little friend aka student there
more post about the sawarak trip will post soon

now in sarawak ..

1 more day to go .

An excitement trip and thrilled ....

Now is the 9th days in sarawak

I miss my bed *grin*

I miss my PC

I miss my family

I miss the lovely island

small island penang ..

Wohoo ..

tomorrow going back !!!!

always hoping for a new excitement experienced

and the journey to explore .

not only to explore sawarak but

is to explore deep inside

and the ethical culture and different ideology beneath ..

I will be back tomorrow muahahahahah ..=)

Where are you

I've LOST my Ipod


Do you know how it feels when you woke up in the morning
Hanging a big smile on your face
and you started to looking for your Ipod to perks up your mood
and you noticed that :

"GOSH where is my Ipod ?"
"Grrrrrrrrrrr.. where is it?"
" When is the last time I've used it? "
"When? When? When?"
" College, Car, Room ?"
" No, i've searching all the places like crazy mad lady looking for son

The similar questions keeps running in my head ..
and distracting my mood
a big mood sway because of this Ipod
although is not a very "superior" kind of Ipod
but do you know how I've obsessed with Ipod?
The thing that I ever wanted ..
but I just lost it
damn ..


"Ipod, Ipod where are you??"

Refrain

i'm back !

I've been looking for water but I come up dry
Thought that I could find happiness but
Now I know what I should do
Seeking for a abundant life
Go to trust the simple truth
Go to trust all I really need
Go to trust my passionate now
I'm coming ..
Coming back to the arm never far out of reach
Love that call me when
I lose my way..Hold me when
I feel afraid So I'm not in grey
no more getting caught in the middle between black and white
I know where I stand
I know the only thing that of worth living for

The meaningful purpose in my life :) ..
YET SIMPLE JUST TRUST ....

p.s: I am smiling inside out when I write this blog =)

"My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life." (john 10:10)
" if ANYONE in Christ, He is a new creation;
the old has gone, the new has come" (2nd Corinthians 6:17)

BETRAYAL !!!

"Don’t let anyone, particularly someone
who has betrayed your trust,
maintain a grip on your emotions."

Seen The LIGHT

After Editing : Visual that keep playing in my mind


A girl looking at the sun's ray in a forest
the warmth of sun ray's falling on her skin
the light that she seeking for
she looking for ..the LIGHT
like a hope that she always seeking for

This is my perception ...I can feel it

This scenarios keep repeating floating in my mind
This particular imagination keep viewing in my thought ..
running across my mind ..
Keep playing in my thought
I don't know why
I just can't explain ..just stick in my mind
I searching very very very hard looking the photo that match the visual in my mind
But this is the least I could find
I just couldn't find a perfect photo that match perfectly the visual in my mind
Hence I edit the photos closely similar to the picture in my mind
I try to find out the meaning beneath ...
I wonder .. Wht's my subconscious trying to tell me

I want Empty

Empty Me .. Empty me of the selfishness inside and every poison of my pride Empty me of the lazy, sluggard heart and fill me with zeal and strength .. fill me with spirit and hope .... fill me with whole-heart this is my only plea .. PLEASE !