Another happy day

"I've make it through the day

although there was hurricane struck on

but

I've made it through

Supporting each other through the inevitable ups and downs.

I AM HAPPY "

True colors

I'M HAPPY TODAY

find any reason to make myself happy today

=)

"When anxiety was great within me,

your consolation brought joy to my soul"

(Psalms 94:19)

discovering

If we keep beating around the bushes we would find there is a light within.

Currently I am struggling to find a way out

just to discover the light within

a light inside myself

not by hiding it under

light only could be seen with the existence of darkness

I might not be the most blazing sunshine ...

but all I hope it could spread the warmness

i don't know how far the light could reach.............

I want to discover "me" .. still a lot to learn tough

is there any empty space

I would hope somewhere in my heart would have an empty seat that would open it up to confront openly to everyone . constraint would be my thing

Pluck

Children would make me smile =)

this couples of days unstable emotional

deprived sleep

hide from problem

today I smile =)

Shall I need to pluck up courage and face

or I shall pluck out courage and take out this dose

and move on

Captvate

captive thought

imagination is a mental trash

a change of heart and mind

falling into

today I should be in other places except college

but i got a call from group member and he ask me to go back for radio recording thingy

hence hang out in college for a little while ..

and seeing something unexpected .......

and seriously i was shouting my lungs out .......

isn't some kind of game I am into . call "coincidence " game

for goodness sake leave me alone ......

don't stirred up my emotion

i could be much better

i really find no reason to make an excuse or explain for all these ...

Decision made

A fragile heart is my heart .......

emotional is my attitude..

lead me into very very deep thought

I'll take it as a coincidence

nothing more, dare not ask for more

I shall do more for what I should hold on

unexpected, surprised already end of the story

somehow, someone already become shadow among the crowd

the stupidity would be a lesson for me

never fall in again

I should start a new chapter for ME

A significant new memory about my lifetime

just ME.

like always do.

I've decided.

unedited beauty and natural personalities

Today went for human portrait for indivudual assignment ..... so I decided to borrow agnes Canon camera for portrait .. because using panasonic Lumix is not that suitable for portrait .....

I think I am bad at human portrait .. share some here that I choose for my assignment handout ..

so some individual models for the day !! is actually fun .. that let me learn ..

Take portrait not only the face .. but to take the personality ..but i think to take human portrait I still need to learn a lot ........................

These photo is unedited yet !! .. new. fresh.

so these are the photo i've taken ................ I think .. i am not good at it ....still a lot more to learn

MUA.A preliminary learner

Awesome photographer aka great lecturer

Yoghan

Sara.

Ariff

self timer

Ferny !

Dasha

Naina

Veen Dee !!

Jeffrey

wei jin

Veen Dee

Chrissy!!

Angeline

Chao .. The shortest one is me .. haih

God would open the other door .. where you'll see light

When you feel like hiding, all I need is just a courage to face ..and a small little faith
There is not the end in the road, when you seems like everything is a dead end .
temptations, mistakes, regrets, hurts ........
I think is all about myself ...walk out from the darkness
I'll see the light ....there is light .. there is hope .....
a new start is about the grabbing the next second
making a way to the open door .....

discover the other side of my world

discover life by captured the moment ...... which I called it " reality of life"

drove around the town, I saw something that caught my attention ..

this homeless women with her four little children sharing a packet of rice ....

argh ..I get on my nerve, parked my car aside and walk towards them ......

give her a smile on my face ..she replied .....

the kids replied me with a innocent smile on their face ..

my heart soften immediately ..... hold on my tears and keep smiling at her .......

I discover the children without shoe, there was a old rugged baby carriage beside.

She was carrying a baby .. beside her was 3 others kid surround her for a mouth of rice .

at that time is already 10pm

i think there is no shelter for them .......not a man that beside her ....

I think she is tough to make a living for her kids .........

there is not enough food ...and the skies is going to rain ......

The moment I want to take a photo, she seems to become fearful and shook her head continuosly ....

so I took from a far ....

I walked off with a very long sigh................haih ........I was wondering

"is there anything I could do besides standing and watching ?"

I am a person who seek solitude and introspection

Emotional go away

Everything gotta be fine ~~ are you ready for the run ???

Listen to Jazz really calm myself down .. I am so into Jazz right now ...

when listen to Jazz. the movement of the song, I felt like floating, my heart become light and easy .......Woooooo ~~ so laid back

went to G spot, Cassandra C a great vocalist ... that sing out personalities and the lyrics

shite, just came back from G spot ...... The smoke scent stick on my hair .. Argh very hard to get rid of it ....

Going with the flow

Everything doing fine. going with the flow smoothly

still a lots of thing to learn in photo editing.

Maybe between the best and okay is a big difference.

Favouriteeee T stirr up something

Paul Frank always is my favourite. I like monkeys =)

the monkey character which don't have a body ....just a big big head. look, he got a body today ..

Everytime when I look at this monyet, I would think of ..

Grace and Joanne .... Because we all love paul frank monyet ......

They were my best friend last time ....

because of something happen .. a big mistakes, a big regret ..we all lost contact. totally.

i hope they are doing fine right now ..and Joanne birthday is coming soon .. on the 16th of this month, i still remember the 10 digits number although the number no longer valid anymore ........yet still her hp number still in my hp contact list, I just can't totally lose .....I would still send a birthday greeting sms on the 16th of may every year .. I''ve always hope there would be someone to answer the call and sms ........

I miss those time .........the memory still in my mind ...I'll keep continue pray for you ....

if I ever have a chance to met her again .... I would say ............

"I miss you, my friend"

"Once upon a time .............."

What to do

Sneeze !! Argh ... I feel like I want to chop off my nose man !!

I've tried many ways

boiling hot water...panadol active fast ........Vicks .....Sauna ......Lampe Berger(burning lamp and oil and some weird fragrance)

I just can't rid of blocked nose ....

my nose felt like dropping

I barely open my eyes in the exam hall and the air conditional is freaking cold ...

come back from college want to work out in the gym, ended up sleeping deadly on the bed.

went to Guardian searching for Clarinese... but they don't have a pharmacist there .what

fine ~ Bare with it .. what to do .........fuss fuss

gagaagagaga .........................

still got 5 pieces of radio news for tomorrow, exam summore ! ..

Get my est back to finish my work

remain ?

the moon looks different every night .....

I have a whole new perception, a different way of looking at things ...

a absolute 100% certainty does not exist .......

I felt much more better ....

way better to accept what thing that couldn't change

sometimes we trying hard to change many thing around us,

tried to give a reason for myself ...

sometimes the only thing that unchanged is "me"

Ah .. I felt much more better

its time for a change

=)

pride

Incompetent - the greatest obstacle is "me"

Special Bond

I asked God for a best friend, He gave me more ......

I realized they are always the one who hold on me ....when I am about to fall

especially in college .. everyone said that is really hard to have a true best friend after graduated from high school but ........ I've found !!! through love, respect, honest, understand .. is what we learn from each other ..............

when obstacles come between us, today I've learn that i should put down myself ....

when obstacles lies in front of me, I've learn to listen slowly, think slowly, talk slowly .. if can't just walk away for a moment ...

After the obstacles, I've learn how to be a better friend .. A better person .......

=)

free to be

Hold on what you believe and your principle ...

I am free to be what i want

Sometimes I really wonder should we change for the environment around us just for adaptation and trying hard to fit into .. ..?

I am strongly say "NO" ....now

Everyone are free to be difference .....free to be themselves ..

although I might be as good like others .. I can't be like one ..

I've learned that if I keep comparing or competing .. it would never end ..what it will is just making myself felt awful and losing myself once again ......

My life is not about how people think of me .........

My life is about how much have I done ? what did I do ?

Don't let other frame my life .......

tell me why

I can feel is getting nearer .. although is a distance far away

it's not supposed to feel this way .......

I don't to be the one who fall again ...

Why.....

Fellowship

I wonder what is the real meaning of fellowship?

Fellowship is about experiencing life together which we call "one another"

fellowship is not about socializing, food, conversation, update each other .....

Real fellowship is more than just showing up .. It is about unselfish loving. honest sharing, practical serving and sympathetic comforting .this lead me to a deeper thought.

I know ......just like a wake up call

Still alive

Disappointment .........

What's your problem man ?

Isn't I must care about some people's pride and I chose to keep silence

but I really could not understand

"irresponsible " is the word I for you !

"Immature" is the word we used as a excuses for you .....

No call back phone call, no reply sms ...we wonder are you still alive man

Sometimes i really wonder, for a 10years plus friendship, should we deserve this ..

Or you felt sorry we as your friends .....

I felt really discourage and helpless .....

ok "tell me what do you want? " .. You are just like the midst of air . Poot... Disappear

I guess maybe you'r in a hard circumstances ...maybe you don't felt like talking to me ..

but you could talk to anyone of us ....at least we know you are fine, man ..

Do you know why we call every week? not because you need to be there ..

but we want you to be there, man .....what's this youth meant for you?

and what's God mean for you .............

Girl's time

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! , Love you guys !! "

13 people gathering .. Fun .. Appreciate it ..! thanks

although today is saturday, crowded, expensive ..

but friendship does not count on this

i could say one thing

everyone is different ..the changes inside ..

Growth I could say ..

one thing I hope and i pray for

: " they would be always happy, hold on the virtue .. no matter how crucial life is "

and the most important

" Hold on me .. Hold on friends "

unforgettable

Some thing that I couldn't forget . still on my mind .....unforgettable .. unforgettable