Boon leaving

P.S : Boon today you leaving d, we've really miss someone gifted in music like you. I want to said that you actually inspired me a lot a lot. There is a lot of common between me and you actully, exercise, the POV, passion for music, a big picture of life, Photography. Haih, i would never forget what you'v taught me as a sister. All the best in your life ............ remember have time to think of us ..........have time to visit us !!

Swim Swim ...

Went to Times Square apartment, a nice apartment which located in a busy street light . When i had a nice leisure time look upon the sky while soaking myself in the pool, woot. That's life man. I am thankful for where I was born, not to rich nor too poor. Since when i was small, my parents and I don't really believe that fade will destiny our whole life but we believe the ONE who direct our life, and have a plan in our life. A day before everything in my life restart, I grasp to have time to 'reformat' my thought and reschedule for the week.

.....................HOPE and OPPORTUNITY .........................

I define me

" As you grow older, every choice that you've make defines who you're gonna turn into;

Look at yourself and ask if you like this person you're becoming "

Floweeee

The flower going to wither soon ......

sometimes I would just drop by some florist shop

picking some flowers for myself ..

have fun to learn how to mix and match the color and flower

and then Photties

Perks my days up

my mood and my surrounding .....

hope that the color of flowers could add some colors in my life

The international

there is no truth or justice in this world ....

although we have boundaries and law

but at the end the villain has been destroyed however

sinful nature of man, self-centered just like a circle go round and round ...

In man, we would never pursue the truth .. the true wisdom

if there is white .......... there is a existance of black

without black, we wouldn't know what is white .........

won't run out

Therefore we do not lose heart.

Through outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.

Spend some quiet time .. just to LISTEN and meditate

Deeper

3 stages of a follower life

1. Grace and love Just as I am

2. Transformation

3. "Give Away" and Follow

Disobedient would become the obstacle in my spiritual life

Self-centered would become the main source of Sin ....

A man can't save his own life ....

"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."

Shoot for the moon

The passion that I would never want to live without !!

now my portuguese flute tutor he said he would be living soon ........... haih ...

and he offer me to teach his flute student in the music school and some student in Up Lands Woot !! Woot !!

Oops !! of course i didn't direct answer yes !!

I said " Give me some time to consider about it, is a big thing Mr.Fernando "

Yeah ! become a professional flute tutor is what I've ever dream for

but is just I did not expect it come so fast ....................

so how !! how should I decide !!

should I just shoot for the moon ? should I ..

i know this could be a good chance for me to learn and improvise my flute technic and the whole music thingy !!

I am so struggling ....

i want to shoot for the moon, am I well prepared ?

I know if I said yes, I have to totally devote whole heartedly and commit into the whole music thing ..

I know I just can't live without the whole musical thingy, but I did not expect it come right

Boom !! so fast !!

one step at a time ??

hey how

" The shortest way to do many things is to do one thing at once"

Recently not really burden with a lot of stuff, just still the same, a lot of waiting list script on the to-do list. however things seems not really on track, mood and heart are not on the right track. body and soul felt tired easily.

Why? ask me why? I wonder ......

I've try to devote in everything .. but looking at To-Do list just can't achieve .

I don't want to give up !!!

long break come back

Just came back from the busiest city located in Malaysia, i realized that the fast pace every one follow. Among the crowded, lack of something on their face, guess? I'm quite enjoying spotting people, people which have different colour, different background heading to the same destination with different purpose. I would like fast pace life in there, the fast pace just making me just like want to follow the step so that I won't left behind.

When I came back, Notice that the leisure life people live in an island, Penang. Yet still I noticed that I've so much thing to do to pursuit the thing that I am now started to chasing. Yet still my life still good. Have to learn how to expect less and just free to be me.

Guilt and past mistakes would draw me backward, but I still need to learn how to push it away.

I need to learn how to say "NO " when the word "GIVE UP " or lame excuses just pop out in my mind, no matter to the band, church, college, character striving, healthy life, social.

what I could do is just simple "Cherish every moment" ........nothing could be better than this

The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.

depart, apart, together again

I keep rushing in and out the airport these couples of month, of course I am not the traveler !!

last week would be the 5th times to air port !! Woohoo

Why people is just like fast forward their life, so fast, flip to a new chapter of life

erm let me count ......

Kim, someone, Joel, Jonathan, Lee Mun, Duckiii Su Yuan, Hana.

I've learn to immune myself not to felt sad when someone apart from me

I should be happy, because they are pursuing and writing a whole new chapter for themselves

and I am exploring mine too, until the day we meet, we would have a lot a lot a lot of thoughts that we kept and share the tears and joy.

When someone left , I realized how much I've miss them

When someone left , I started to miss those moment we've spend together and the I felt like want to chase back the time we've miss.

When someone left, I would started to think how could I trace back the feelings

When someone left, I start to rethink, how much have I've offer myself? not much. that's what I could answer.

after they left, I started to learn to embrace and appreciate ..........................

anyway, Thanks for craving a footstep in my lifetime that I would want to give thanks the most =)

We're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?I

The band, I am back with different hope

These few days went back to band although I don't really know all from Brass to percussion or the formation thing, i am learning and try my best to offer what I could. striving !!!

No matter what we all know we ain't going to stay long,

Isn't as a return for my past mistake, or to create another history for the band again

i am not sure about that..??

but i do know that, although once again I gotta exposed under the sun and the radiant nearly killing me !! I do know that that's what I love to do, I am happy and looking forward to coach them everyday under the sun, i think that's my passion !! it just simple as that ..

kinda hard for me to be a good "elderly senior" .. I don't know..

but i do know that " passion " is what draws me back ..

and PCGHS marching band is what I've hold on

although everyday woke up at 7:00am go back at 3:00pm and have to shout, planning what's the next step, and what's the best, effective skills for them ...and have to dragged my tired body back, felt strengthless, tired ..

but i found it I am super duper enjoy and commit in the field !!

because that's what I love it !!

no matter what I won't give up !!!! not a chance to say no !!

no crossing beyond

WHen the other door start to open

Shut it before you hoping for something else

maybe it would be just you standing there with a broken dream

I think is good to keep it like that

not beyond friendship, i think I am the one who should remind myself

I belong to me ..

downcast

Life is SHORT, stop shitting around

" Why are you downcast, my soul

why so disturbed within me "

Attempt

Bring out the best in me ..

I got to learn

i think sometimes under some circumstance

people ,mistakes, wrong-doing will blow me apart

but it doesn't stop me to keep learning

Fall and stand up again ..

Inspiration, passion and faith that makes me stronger

withhold what we shouldn't .

and on hold what we trust on ....

bring out the best in me ...as long as no regret and I've tried

In righteousness you shall be established;

you shall be far from oppression,

for you shall not fear; and from terror,

for it shall not come near you.

So, when the pressure is on, hold on the belief and faith

The faith is the one make us stronger .....

The door that I couldn't shun

突然好想你

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

突然好想你你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然听到你的消息 ...............

when there is something about ... there still will have butterfly in the stomach

what's the mirror reflected was a pair of losing eyes, soften eyes

a heart that feel miss

I thought I've close the door never would ever open

and move on ...

but out of sudden ..

I become quite .. the door would never shun ...

Nuew

Make a change, turn around

I discover

I see

I feels

I embrace

I love

nothing seems hard, everything alright.

" Thanks for lifting me up"

Simple goodie day

Happiness would be simple
Open the wide window
Looking at the lovely sky
spend time reading the verse, listen
watch the others life which screen in Gossip girls
Have a great time workout in the gym
spending a nice conversation with your best friend
meeting lecturer, see his funny face
playing flute, listen to the simple tune play by myself
Bought an album from the artist I love the most
tuck in the small couch touched by others through books
with a great accompany sound which sing by my favourate artist ..
every little movement ..every little moment ..
could made mine day ..a good day


GOOD DAY always
and Today really is a good day outside ..
nice windy day,
nice combination the cloud and sunny day
nice starry night,
with a joyous heart in me ..=)
that's mine day, the one and only one , 3/3/2009,
looking forward for tomorrowToodles !!

why

W.H.Y has been playing around my head .....
Why am I just difference
am I have the so much difference from others
WHY
and should be my thinking?
just feels different
Was I like that last time ..
isn't a good thing or bad thing
what if I remain the same, no changes ...

Well Kept

I want to captured some beautiful moment that I am spending with my friend,
captured their smile, their funny stupid act!!
is just simple want to treasure the moment while I'm still around them
I think I do ..
I look at them, I smile =)
I kept in my heart .......
Include their voice while they are singing loudly broadly
even out of tune ....hahaha that's all adding colours in my life
I think I want to treasure every moment from now ..
every thing ... A greeting, a soft voice of care, lend me a helpful hand.
The feeling that I am important among them
that's enough ..

P.s: I really have a great time in Red Box with a bunch of friends ..JON !!
we counted you in just now !!!! sing with us in Aussie !!!

I need a PLan which make my day hader

Feb expenses .. see the pie chart, we call it "Live pizza"
I divided my expenses into few categories and I use endless hour to count
March BUDGETTIE !!!



I think is time for me to be responsible to money ..
hence, I took a very long time to count last month expenses
and this coming month " Financial Budget"
Haih, is a shame that I don't have any cents of saving for the past year
It really give me a hard time to budget my money .. first time in my life
and I have decided I won't take any money from my mom even I am poor like a beggar !!
For my Own sake !! because for the past few month this year I still spending like nobody business!

now I know how costly to raise a child man !!! Thanks for where I was born
what if next time my career don't support me thousand plus a month ...
how I survive
now I have 500 for 24 days, i wonder isn't enough ????
500 ?? it already cut to half compare to last time ...
I wonder what if next time i will go overseas .. or not staying at home
would I survive !!
now I have to buckle up !! live in " poverty " !!
So I think I have to determine now !! i MEANT IT !!!
I ask my mum don't give me a cent if I suffering in hunger !!
I just want to stick to my plan and my goals !!
GOGOGO !!
go away temptation !!!
I don't want to be slave of $$$$$
I want to be the master of $$$$$ ..
The game start now !!!

=)