what's in your head

In the midst of busy, I got myself even more busier .......

a lot a lot of messy bussy thought, plans playing in my mind.

All i want is just some quiet moment without procrastination .....

a moment of peace .......................

"I am your healer,

I am your refuge,
I am your strength.”

get rid rubbish thought

This couples of days, my thought kinda like a unfix puzzle ......
Deprived from sleep, rest, exercise ..... cause me to caught a flu.
Lots of rubbish in my mind which I hardly get rid of it ..
Easily to get frus and keep whining .......procrastinate, undone thing.
I was thinking maybe I should get a way, find a serenade place to reinstall my thought and my mood.
Somehow I need some quiet time staying alone.. without any mind distraction and mood swing.
Somehow, have you ever thought you don't really know yourself anymore ..or this person that you see infront of the mirror has changed ..? or still remain the same ......? Do really know the mask that you wearing... do you like it, do you enjoy it ? I could tell you I'm not. How I wish everyone could be authentic from they are ....inside out ..

"who am I" ........ the answer is uncertain and non-absolute ......

Should I

barely to trust ...

it is not suppose to happen in this way actually ..

why ? I've always ask ........

time is always I've ask for ..

to cover up. heal, put it aside, give up, let go, move on.

when is the deadline .. I am speechless ..

am i still falling? maybe/ maybe not

i think is just memory no matter is good or bad .. it would being still stirred up no matter

but deep inside your heart ..

you'll know

you still have to admit ..................

"it's still there" until now

busy.. buzzzy

In any circumstances.....it would survive

A very very busy week had passed, all the important event has finally call it an end..

I was really exhausted for the past two days .......

tiredness and sleep deprived nearly choke my life

I am not a person who live for work and task, that's why will cause me breathless ...

which am picking up my shattered pieces of life ...

"I hope everything is well-organized and I hope I am really to take every challenges ..

when taking every chances, remember not to lose myself and a courage to step ahead,

remember values of life and who is in control.."

Iremember one of my friend told me :

"Do what you think is you have and must do

do not fear, be courage, take the first step and all the door will be open .

leave behind the strange voices would lead you astray,

which obstruct you from taking the first steps

by the way

is me have to take responsibility for My life for what I've done and what I've decide

not to please others but to please the one who is in control ...

salt in the sand

this lyrics pierce into my heart when I really really upset .... and dull

"Give me wings,

Give me peace.
These are the things that I need.
I'm tormented, broken and shamed
Are you listening?
Give me shelter from the storm,
I know it's a lot to ask for,
Considering how recent I've piled the dirt on your name.

In this where I am for your sake,
Stuck between sleep and awake?
My mind is dreaming of things.
I took you for granted again
And threw you aside
And pretended for one minute that I had control of my life,
And direction it seemed to be in
I was wrong again, (I was wrong again)"

Deep Shite happened !!

I won't blame why this happen to me ............

but I wonder what should I do now ???

I am really in deep shite right now .....not only right now and just now ...

Can you imagine that you forgot to bring your purse would cause such a big deep shite

can you imagine that you got caught by police ..

because I did something that against the traffic lawand police car chased after me ..............

and I don't even know that turning was actually wrong ........... I am .. haih .....

and the you know what .........

You are without driving license and IC ?????

what!!! The police suspected you are a car stealer and a non-malaysian !!!!

and I know I got to to go traffic's court !!!!!!!! My dad said it might cause thousand plus !!!!!

so am I in deep shite right now ..

yea !!!!!

seriously deep shite !!!!! what can I do !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is scariest experiences in my life ......................I bet you is really ........

troubles me right now right now ...............

which I hope everything would be fine ....... without bothering my parents once again

Never ever learn

portraiture model: Dasha Logan

Late at night I wonder why .......

Sometimes I'm so tired .. I don't even try

Seems everything around me fails

I know there is a reason for me to keep holding on ..

I could do more about it .. but why ...

What's my problem keeping me from moving ahead

LIVE ON

I love my life, my view from a colorful way of life.

I realized it is important to catch up with the person that I care in my life

Instead of shallow talks and jokes, but with something from in-depth

we gotta hold on each other, protecting, encouraging.

friendship is beyond than just socializing and meeting up.

even is just a simple caring text messages, or a simple miss call

a real is a friend that touch my heart and make me feel the importance of existing in their life.

current mood: LIVE ON !

things to do: buck up with my academic radio show, copywriting. Get enough sleep. exercise more.

P.s: thanks to joy, joshua, jack, adrian, joel, Joseph, Agnes, chee dai, mong hui, WF, veen dee, fern, Phey Phey, Shu Ling, Gaik, Brancy, Inn teng, Sin Yee, CY.

Incompetency

"Jealousy" happen is when you start conscious of what lacking within you ..

Start whining and be ungrateful when you compare to others ..

Instead to be understanding but put to blame on others

" We are born to be ourself, not to be what others want us to be, so just being yourself "

Pleasure irrelevant with happiness

Model portraiture : Tan Chin Fern

Happiness go nothing to do with pleasure

I felt pleasure when I want something and I get it

I've always discontented ..

today a voice inside me telling me

"pleasure is always relative, Happiness is absolute"

and "Happiness is the UNDERSTANDING And ACCEPTANCE of life at this very moment as COMPLETE AND PERFECT. "

I reflected, all I have is more than enough

what could I ask for more ?

all I want is just a true joyous abundance life

everyone looking for ...

Someone would seeking for love and caring when they are lonely and tired of running for goals.

Don't speak liar .... sometimes I, myself is the liar .. to cover everything to makes myself feels a little bit better ..a little bit self-worth.. but actually not ..........

look be still

It may seems hard to get in on the right track, everything seems uneasy when I started to take the firststeps and courage to take this road. all I need is just wisdom to plan my steps and God direct my path ........Be still and know that who is in control. I hope i hope i could make it through

new new

Everyone deserves a second chance

Let's move on !

be inspire and live on !

=)

Stay Awake

Coffee - Awaken

something in my life should stay alive

some natural desire and lust should put into death

I'd decided to taken off old self to follow faith

I don't want to waste my lifetime anymore ..

count on mine hours and days ..

I've neglected so much in the past ..

given up

"I'd already give up, yet still I can't let go."

estee

Take care

It's time for me to love "me" more =)

body, my gastric

beauty flows from in to out ...

especially the heart and the mood ..

别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及

P.s: really sorry fern and chrissy, Brancy I've broke my promise to go "have fun " with you guys

Haih again

Never been so weak before

strengthless .. Helpless

Keep Puking in the middle of the night

Diarrhoea ...Stomach pain ...

bearing pain curl myself to sleep

killing me ....

I hate lying on the bed and when I look at food I felt awful ...

lying on the bed like dying ....can't do anything

I want my healthy body back .....