everybody needs money $$$

Today is my mum birthday. maybe i will go and buy some card or cake.
not in the plan yet. because i am poor. you know when u started college life
u need $, although my money is RM 100 per week exclude fuel.
and these are the thing i plan to buy it at the end of the year :
Ipod touch RM1600
SONY PSP RM800
Highlight hair RM200
ESP WAtch RM 400

= Rm 3000
haiz . although in my own principle that money does not come first, but without money, i'll die.
reality of life is always mean.but think of my listed item, all are unnecessaries. so, maybe i won't buy it, it such a waste to use my own money to buy unnecessaries, ok i'll urge my parents, haha.
for birthday present, christmas present, and CNY present. Crazy, i was just joking. I know that money does not come easily. To earn a dollar is not easy.although i never work before. but last sunday, my mum talk to me, she said use your money wisely and not to be wasteful.
Actually my parents are very wise when they spend money, they didn't spent on wasteful item.
but 1 thing they give us to spent, maybe because during their childhood, they know how it feels when in poor situation.So, if a Nike Shoe me and my sister want to buy my mum would buy it.
But if my mum want to buy it, she won't spent. Sometime, i really feel like guilty, especially when I go CB(coffee bean), because i spent a lot on that sometimes everyday or four times a week.
haih, i must quit my bad habit,quit spending wastefully.
I want High Quality, Low Cost.

Love is patient .. Impatient is not love.

Thanks, He spoke to me in this text. I'm a impatient but I have to learn ...and practice it.

Making Allowance For Each Other’s Faults

2008/02/26

“Be patient with each other, making allowance for each other’s faults because of your love.” (Ephesians 4:2b NLT)

The more we understand, the more patient we become.

When we see the hurt beneath the anger, or the reason behind the behavior, we’re more likely to “make allowance for each other’s faults.”

The ability to understand is a sign of patience. (Proverbs 14:29) The Bible teaches, “A man’s wisdom gives him patience; it is to his glory to overlook an offense.” (Proverbs 19:11 NIV) God’s wisdom teaches us that love is patient (1 Corinthians 13:4), and that impatience is not love.

When facing a challenge to our patience, it helps to remember God is not asking us to give more patience to others than the patience he gives to us. The apostle Paul uses his own life as an example of this, saying God showed him mercy, despite his many sins, so that “Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience.” (1Timothy1:16 NIV)

We need patience with one another because God created each of us with different shapes, assigning each of us a different mission in life. We all have different backgrounds, and we’re each at a different place in our journey with Jesus. Practicing patience keeps our view on the things above, allowing us to see how God works even in the most difficult of circumstances. It is in patience we often learn that diversity is a strength, instead of a weakness.

The apostle Paul wrote, “Welcome with open arms fellow believers who don’t see things the way you do. And don’t jump all over them every time they do or say something you don’t agree with – even when it seems that they are strong on opinions but weak in the faith department. Remember, they have their own history to deal with. Treat them gently.” (Romans 14:1 MSG)

What does this mean?

· Work at being consistently patient – Anybody can be patient when it’s convenient, but it’s much harder to remain patient when the day is slipping away or when you’re faced with the same mistake for the third time in one week. Patience often comes at significant cost; it requires you set aside your agenda and yield your rights in order to “welcome each other with open arms.”

· Learn to listen – Listening means more than just hearing someone talk; it means carefully considering what the other person is saying and actively trying to understand his or her point of view. The Bible says, “Listen before you answer. If you don’t, you are being stupid and insulting.” (Proverbs 18:13 TEV) That’s pretty clear! It means we shouldn’t evaluate what someone has done or said until we’ve heard the full story. God gave us two ears and one mouth, perhaps to tell us we should listen twice as much as we talk. Ha!

· Ask yourself these questions:
§ What makes me impatient?

esther : when i was driving, talk to my youngest sister,

§ What does my impatience say about my priorities?

esther: My thing is more important than others(self-centered)

§ How can I better understand the people who bring out my impatience?

esther : by praying.

§ Have I taken time to listen to their full stories?

esther: nope, i always choose what I want to listen, but not the full stories.

§ In what ways do people have to be patient with me?

esther:when i was mentally slow esp playing games or talk something that I couldn't understand

§ Do I give the same amount of grace to others as I expect them to give me?

§ “Love is patient.” (1 Corinthians 13:4 NIV) – that means love puts up with a lot for a long time. The next time your patience reaches its limit, remember how patient and understanding Jesus is with you.

ALIVE ..

today get back to my previous high school ..
u know what .. i woke up late .. damn it ..
and the freshman(girl) this year ..quite good .
and yea .. my back just went back to Indonesia this morning ..
and i have to help to do the house chores .. help my mummy
actually i like to do house chores ,i was just lazy because i have maid since i was small
so, tomorrow have to wash my car myself ..iron my own shirt, clean up my dog's shit and pee .
desperately want to watch jumper
last week , i had watch 'the eyes' 'meet the spartans' 'vantage point' 'step up 2' ..
argh, sick of cinema already i'm not going to watch movie anything
go watch movie until i want to puke already ..
haiz ..when i got back home this afternoon
many thought come into my mind, about me and my family and friends
actually how much did i devoted for my family and friends
maybe because of me, my own self-centered behaviour
so is quite tough for me to reach out or get a best friend.
have another 5 marks presentation about advertising on tuesday,
and i was paired with Fergie .. yeah .. new partner
i was kind of miss Veen Dee , she went back to Alor Setar yesterday.
and you know what , i always stick with her everyday on weekday from day to night.
she is one of mine goodfriends, although we just know each other about a month ago.
she is really a kind person, i have learn a lot from her. she is cool.
and today, He spoke to me a lot .. thanks.
u know actually this week, i really have quite a tough time, hard circumstances around me.
because especially, I was trying to hide my thought, and do not want to plan anything,
or care any stuff.
But now i know i have to. Is time, I have to bring out the courage to face and solve my own prob
I have to concern my academic and my relationship with Him and relationship between my friend and family. I have to deal with it ..
YEAH !! be ENERGETIC, with STRENGTH and BRAVE ..
fill my heart with His word evey day.
GIVE THANKS.. I'M ALIVE AGAIN.START MY OWN GENESIS WEEK ..

just came back .... reenergised ..

i can't live without internet .. During CNY ... went to Johore to visit my grandmother ..and my aunt
they are hilarious .. just see them once a year .. every one of them have a different story .. different personality ....but i know they treat us from their bottom of their heart ..haiz .. family relationship can be complicated due to money or as simple because of love .. although i do not know them very well .. but i really hope they can find the purpose in this world .. not because of money , or children or because of life they live ... i have found ....when i was there i realized time flies !! really fast .. next week is my 18 birthday . so fast i lives in this world already 18 years ..
during CNY .. i ate so much .. and i gained weight .. urgh ...... how how ??
i hate myself .. when i start gaining weight .. and i will eat more and more ... urgh ...sob sob ..
how is it ? start to watch my diet now and be optimistic .......!!! yeah .. thats true .. be optimistic ! think positively ....
haih .... a lot of assignment to do ... not even do yet .. argh ... pressure + weight pressure + appearance pressure + presentation = depression !!!
i need to deal with it ... add oils .. cannot be lazy any more .. problems is meant to maturity .. i need to conquer it .. and with the strength .. there is nothing impossible .. with you ..