answer isn't that imp.

Only chinese words could script down my feelings:

每一次我都有如此的冲动, 都很想很想告诉你.

但是每一个次都退缩了.

我想即使说了, 也不会 挽留些什么.

或许我只是想要个答案与了结

但是如果释 怀真的可以忘记 .....................

那我是否 .....

is that all I want ?

do you still remain?

"Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear,

too long for those who grieve,

too short for those who rejoice,

but for those who love, time is eternity."

love, sister, Mr. fernando, best friend, childhood friends

everyone has their own life in thousand miles away

left me all alone.

The distance is so far... not only the miles and miles

but the distance within two hearts.

I need to know the simple truth

There's no one forever be there.

I'm always standing alone ..

will love still remain ??

small little warmth

.A little things that friends do for me, will make feels belongs.

like just now Fergie called and she remembered I have team building tomorrow and give me some ideas.

and a friend where he knows I am always the last one to leave because I couldn't finish marking and he offered to help.

A smile from my supervisor saying :"I'll see you tomorrow. Bye. Night"

Small little things that people do it for me makes me happy.

I know in relationship I am not a giver.

I am always the taker. not only taker but always take for granted.

but I want to learn to become one..

solitude

when I am feeling empty

I just want to look outside the window

and think how should I figure this out.

please tell me it's fine

"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, It's about dancing in the rain."

我相信一切都会平息.

furious

haih ...... I think I need time to figure things out

I am not a kid anymore ... I can't just run away from problem

Who to trust, who is my friend, true-colors, faker.

today finally open up to a friend which not part of the drama thing

i remember she said :" everyone is faker in a way"

look at myself ... I admit I am.........

i remember i'd read one book it says

:" no one want to be naked in front of everyone, no ones is transparent to each other,

Look, wow, everyday is Holloween..."

the most important things

" BE HONEST TO YOURSELF"

never trust me either ......

i'm a sinful human ... a fallen man

fragile

I can't withold it anymore .....

I am speechless which

sometimes you gave people your heart

you gives people your sincerity

You got lies, fakeness .........

i am seriously ....... finally understand this....

" don't trust anyone that easily, especially who smile to you everyday "

there's a knife hiding behind the smile ..........

someone will aboard on "friendship" with you,

someone people will aboard on "friendshite" with you. ...

how fragile a relationship could be ........

i thought we were friends ......

Please, could you just explain this to me, Because I don't understand..

How could you play this game of pretend and play the part of a friend?

How could you be so thoughtless, how could you want this all to end?

mundane

mundane ............

this fews day feeling mundane ...

something is missing ......

I am feeling tired ...... everyday while I wake up.

I want to know the reason why I am feeling this way

Dance Of Terror

by Justbleu

Window panes come crashing down

Amidst the tears and pain

Vanishing hopes are gone and flew away

Up above through twilight

Shadows cast across the floor

Reflections of the past

Trembling thoughts of one

Dwelling deep within the soul

A mystical sense of reality

Captured by the craze

All in bewilderment

Of the shock in the wave

Creatures of the dimness

Chattering amongst the green

Everything slows in stillness

What is this we see?

bald tree ....

Did you noticed that the leaves on the tree started to fall ......

It's plainly beautiful .....

especially when a car cross and the leaves would be like fill up the air ....

all the leaves scattered along the roadside .. I felt like autumn in malaysia

brown, yellow, golden..... what a nice picture

my mom said because of the hot blazing weather.

I would call it the art of the fallen

whenever I saw that ... it just captured my eyes and make me to ponder for a while ......

p.s: have new photography inspiration for this week !!

shot the art of the fallen leaves.

fear fear

"move quickly from fear to faith no matter what happens."

especially it's the right move to take

The hardest thing is to do the right thing

especially when we are fear to move.

.................

I know everything has a purpose behind it

but for this I rather just believe it is just coincidence.....

I don't know how script down my feeling .....

it's just .....

Great start.

Yes I got the job ... Wohooooo. although it's not high paid ..

i just want to gain experience before go to the big thing "THE intern "

I didn't expected although sucks at interview but I nailed it !!

Yes this year gotta be a good year for me !!! a good good year .. Thank God.

The resolution on the list num 8 could have a cross already.

Wohooo ...

next I would like to go and take action are ....

list num

2. Join symphony orchestra.

3. PASS my GRADE 8 piano with flying color. and start practice now

4. Push up my CGPA. I swear I have to.

picture say it all

trepasses

We would weave between choices.

Especially when you realized you don't have much time

you realized the sceneries all passed so fast that I don't have time to think

what do I really want ........

I've already forgotten the initial purpose and the dream to take this way.

我以为这就是我所追求的世界

然而横冲直撞被误解被骗
是否成人的世界背后总有残缺
我走在每天必须面对的分岔路

我怀念过去单纯美好的小幸福

don't forget every morning is a "second chance"

with mercy and unfailing love abinds me.

fear

I've discover something new about myself:

I am fear when stranger look into my eyes, it scares my smiles off. I just avoid the eyes contact.

people said that your eyes is the vision of your world inside.

Restoration

I've think that I am a Samarian Women who is fear self-rejection and self-worth and longing for a living water, which is Him alone that encounters my life ............

words for d day

For the past fews second just look through the photos and whined " my face so big, shite I look fugly, why other people looks so beautiful in anyway and anyhow" and today just bought a make up power which I don't think worth the price ... but anyway at the moment I just thought "make up make me look more presentable" so I bought it without any hesitation. Flipped through the magazine thinking what kind of haircut and colors I shall do for this year.

I saw this campaign in a blog.... which seriously impressed me and tells me that

"You are just beautiful in a way you are " immediately strikes me, makes me feels guilty about my self-conscious.

Regret list nom 2.I am so regretting right now for buying the face powder, not worth at all

escapee to fantasy world

Have you ever felt that you want a self-escape as in escape from everything

every self-dissatisfaction, frustration, reality, problems

and just want to lose control ....and have really want to indulge into"fun"without hesitation

because don't want to face yourself, and lied to yourself that " I just wanna had some fun"

but actually i am feeling empty inside.

and the first thing I woke up in the morning

I'd realized no matter what i am still here standing on my world

with a headache and buzzing ears.

and I think that wow. ... it's totally different person i was last night and this morning.

just like have a personality disorder between morning and midnight.

just happened to me like countless times

but .........I just realized ...........

it's just about the great escape from "me" and get lost in a fantasy.

and still have to pick up and face it after all

Sometimes is there .... sometimes it wasn't there .........

how will it be if I have one more chance ......

I wonder .............

chances are always there, but am I ready to grab that ???

Start now

new year I wanna start with The Glorious radiant .....

Look through all the older post that I'd posted and all the 2008, 2009 journals...

I've grown up.

=)

The start of 2010, you won't expect a sudden magical change in you

unless YOU DO something about it.

wrong timing I guess

终于明白爱情是一种遇见,不能制造也不能预期,一个人的时候,爱情会寂寞;两个人的时候,爱情会麻烦.爱与不爱,与结局无关,今天就是永远.

爱情是一种遇见,朋友是一种遇见,两个气息相对的人,遇见了就成朋友了;而一百个气息不相投的朋友,交往了一辈子,也不能成为朋友.

爱情也是一种遇见,那是世界上最难的一种遇见,虽然终于遇见了对的人,但是却偏偏在错误的时间里面,只能徒留遗憾,不如没有遇见.

爱情是一种遇见,一种很难的遇见,首先你要相信它,然后你才能真正的遇见.

已经遇见的,正在遇见的,将来会遇见的........我们从擦身而过到不停的遇见又不停的错过,象轮回一样的反反复复,看似没有尽头,命运却会最终给我们答案.

我们一直都在等着,等着那么一个人,不愿错过又常常错过,嘲笑着命运的捉弄却仍坚持着我们的期望.

或者只是一场美丽的误会,相遇之时谁也无法预言我们的未来,就象我们无法预知下辈子将会遇到谁.希望与惊喜都定格在眼神相对的那一刹那,我们遇见了彼此,在这样的人海中.能遇见已经是种幸福,或许我们不该奢求太多

爱情是一种遇见,我们无法主宰它到来的迟早,也分不清它的对错.

爱情是一种遇见,不能制造,不能预期,在对的时间,遇见对的人,变成就了爱情.爱情是最悲哀的,莫过于在错的时间遇见了对的人.