poundering

everyone need to feels "belong"

is that someone really belongs ..

belongs to the heart

or at least he is just there ......

to keep you accompany.

he is just there to accompany your loneliness?

then what worth keep holding on?

I think book is imp for me

Finally, I'd just finish this book, supposed to finish it before christmas, but I've always devoured in specific places cuddled and read. Depends on my mood. t's not that that dramatic like how Ps.I love you do but, it registered my thought into a deeper one. This is a story about people who, not unlike parcels, hide secrets. They cover themselves in layers until the right person unwraps them and discovers what’s inside. Sometimes you have to be unravelled in order to find out who you really are.

Sad ending, but this is not about ending, it's about the solitude that I received after I read it. I've always like to read this genre of book, non-romantic but inspiration.

Jan favourateeeeee

January me lovessss =)

have to do it

Today I take 2 route of bus to work

and I was totally unfamiliar the bus num to reach the destination

but finally although I took the incorrect bus

hence I need to take 30 mins walk reach to destination

Yea, actually I am a person who hates walking so much

but I know I have to go to work. I can't just give up.

under hot weather, with a painful unhealed leg. but i didn't whine.didn't say a words.

just keep walking ..........

I am happy, when I reach the destination my face put on a big big smile =)

trail

i've decided to change this post.

What trails am I consistently taking in life?

when I am all stressed out

I would gone really really far.

some calls are hard to make especially about the consequences you have to bear.

sudden frustration

kinda frus when you editing photos, you know something wrong or missing something but I can't figure it out what's wrong and how to continue. urgh.

you know the results just doesn't fit your mood. what I am feeling.

my heart keep striving for the result of editing man.

Haih, fine redo it another day, enough of photo editing !!!

just this I am satisfied.

passion

I love this portraiture and the editing

of course the person as well

=)

despair

someone call it self-destruction process

I call it " don't care " mode

maybe that's call run away, or bash myself up. uhmm just FML.

All things. just whatever.

i haven't get over yet.

the hardest part in life it's to get over yourself.

not again.

when this will stop ?

Tell me it's ok i know although it's not ok

sick of the crowd everywhere

road. mall. starbucks. restaurant.

especially back to penang during festive season

sorry I'm a human phobia

"go away people"

I need some space to take some air instead

unununuun

I hope everything will get into it's own place.

unpack luggage, unorganized plan, unplanned diet, unplanned workout,

unfinished assignments, unorganized thought.

unorganized financial budget

It's a messssss ... gagagaggaga.

hiya

"Hey there,

thank you

seriously.

^^

birthdeeee

awww ...seriously I miss flicker, tumblr and blogspot for the past few days.

anyway I thought that suppose this year my happy won't be any special

because not in penang.

so no cakes, no candle nor birthday presentee.

But seriously friend's sms, and a simple little wall wishes in FB makes me happie

and the only gift from my aunty " MY HAIR color and cut " from her. teehee ^^

just awww .... awwwww....seriously.

sorry I've noticed that although i acted like I don't care but seriously I need attention during my birthday .. haha.

i'm glad that small little things could makes me happy yo

=)

Do you remember

Same number plate and car just .....

remind me of something

which driving me crazy.

Don't let someone become your everything, because when they're gone you have Nothing

alright all all right

Ugly truth is always too harsh for the ear.

then I been through hard time of "self-doubt"

been through the most awful, awful emotional

feels like want to escape, run away.

now I am trying to accept and curb the emotional

Is alright, all all alright.

抽离----当你思考到“你自己”、“停下来看看”、“退一步想想”、“把你自己从某事中解脱出来”、“把你自己从某种处境中脱离出来”时，你就是在经历着一种被“抽离”的过程.

Shallow

"I'm Just a Shadow of Who I've Been" ~ esther tee

stop saying I don't know

Have you ever doubted yourself that .........

maybe others knows me better than I know "me"

seriously I ....just trust them or I should trust myself.

what's the problem? what's the matter ?

and tell you others don't tell you right on your face

especially the truth that you don't want to hear. because It will strike you hardly and badly

I hope I had a mirror than could just .........self-reflection.

Yes I do

如果你也听说 那你有没有...

[ ] [ ] [ ]

have you ever [ ] [ ]

如果你........ 你会想到什么

Changes

If you think that your friend had change ...

the way she treats you differently

don't doubt her personalities

trust your first perception towards this friend

I think the only thing change .......

is just the "color of lens" she "view" you ......

her perception towards you had sway away

maybe I'm not that important anymore.

Clair de lune.

Uncertainty just flush in my emotional

about how far I could go ..

how much I could reach.

the future ... my own ability.. strength.

I felt that I become so small.

faith become so small.

" Can you see your vision clearly ? "

Clair de lune ... the expression how I feels now.

It's calm yet with inconsistent pounding beat.

yea this is me

I am a person who seeking

self-worth and acceptance from others

I know that's bad.

but yea ....

I want to know myself more.

Loss- subtle word

< 掉了>

微弱的风筝 冬天里飘著

回不去手中缠线的那个  没有蓝天 又何必去飞 怎么适合  

回忆是最可怕的敌人 
想念不能承认 偷偷擦去泪痕 
故事情节掉了 主角对白掉了  
....失去的那瞬间，觉得什么都“掉了....
看见本该有的情绪反应都消失了，
但总有一天，
你能重拾起掉了的那些，
把它化作美好的回忆，
放在心里 
p.s : it's hard to do the right thing :
no matter what 
to let it go
it's the right thing to do 
if it doesn't workout anymore

simple ques

" how are you today ? "

The question that I'd always asked others but not myself.

" Est, how you doing today?

impressivo

"You will never make a good impression on other people

until you stop thinking about what sort of impression you are making "

hey

Hey, Hey, Hey

=)

please tell me I still can run

lame

i don't know when and how I hurt my leg, seriously. I didn't fall or stumble.

Yesterday before going to gym, a little bit uneasy.

i think it's alright, maybe a little smoochis muscle pain.

After the sweat and workout "body steps" class... Shite. paralyze.

"argh, sprain my ankle !!! "

now except my own room I couldn't move much.

It is quite down and hell to me that I can't walk and stuck in my house.

but maybe I should be grateful I have some good time just doing my thing to put everthing together ... listen to some rhythm.read. edit photos.

walk on

Every time I try to walk away

Something makes me turn around and stay

And I can't tell you why.

p.s: 你都如何回忆我,　带着笑或是很沉默?

another day

what was wrong with me

I want to be carefree today ...