freedom

i forgot about the principle
90 > 10
90 is the attitude how you control over the circumstances instead of let it taken over.
i was wrong the one who keep on striving for happiness and freedom. but the true freedom is to feel freedom by itslf. not to strive
追逐自由的人永远得不到自由。学会自在才会自由。

time

During we are still young, we would never realized the pace of time
we thought that we are still have plenty of time. Plenty of time to struggle, to fool around., to make mistake, to be rebellious, to be chasing all freedom we never had during childhood. we fall in love deeply, get a heart broken, until now know what's the pain hurts. We thought that is okay to make mistake, to be a little bit irresponsible.
It don't take a night for all of us to grow.
It don't take a day to know what's important in our life.
What important for me now is
My faith, spiritually.
My family
Me and others I am still learning
My time priority
My promise to myself in my life.

Neglected

I am a selfish person
Why is always me me me.
I try not to be
Wearing others shoes to be more considerate
Give me the eyes of seeing other people needs
Give the a pair of ears which listen to the insight of others
Give me a pair of hands which act on others
Give me a pair of legs to walk with them.
Give me a heart to love others.

Let me open my heart to reach others and to be reached.

Stuck in

remember that

One thing that others do to touch your heart today
Went for coffee and the baristas remember the normal habit that I always do
" Get a cup of warm water"
the kindness and little act that would make people feel imp
Do something to make other people feel important in their life today.
=)

you've been missed

I miss words and expression.
how stupid am I give up writing and editing for the past few months.
I am going to write again.

This is a garden which full of the bloosom flowers

like a sea of flowers

soothing black and white keys playing at the ear

I wish I could just sit there all day long

I wish you were there to see the beautiful world

listen to my world inside.

Tell me whether to stay inside comprise with everything

or choose to go out instead of the comfort zone

Does it really matter ?

it that true that what's really matter is what inside's our heart.

I was wondering what if ...

what if .......

See the World

It has been a while I didn't write or script out what's inside.
Vacation will always clear off ourmind


strengthen our decision

let go the juggle and struggle what's inside

and move on.......... with believe and hope

reserved

I hope one day could shed off the shield

open my heart.

That day, he asked me : " Don't you love your job ? " I paused for a while.. I look at him and I smug. This question makes me ponder for quite sometime

DON'T TRY TO CONTROL ME

I AM HATING YOU RIGHT NOW !

"I've fallen in love with your smile"

Just B =)

Just B happie.

everybody knows

"I have to be happy"

"I just want to be happy"

We've heard it all before everybody knows just how to make it right.

I wish we gave it one more try

everybody knows but

nobody really knows.

today

A work out with loud heavy bass playing in my head...

Read an inspiration piece in the paper...

A concern from random ones in the gym ...

A breeze drive with my favourate oranges juice

just making me feel so right at the moment.

A guy walk in today his scent smell familiar, your perfume, his perfume which he wore on the scent of familiarity just flash back on my mind serioulsy I a weird feeling just flush all over me, and that scent linger around me and given me a sense of security. Because I knew it's you. The scent belong to yoi

Jar of hearts

"You going to catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

Running 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart And who do you think you are"

give me a good reason to go there please.

and look for you.

It's up to you.

"Up to me to wear what kind of attitude on me.

It's up to you whether you like it or not."

I asked him:

"When is the time for me to go out and see the world ? "

because I don't want to live in regret.

Be an influecial person rather than influenced by others.

My dad taught me a lesson today:
"不只要会花钱, 更要懂得赚钱"
That's what he said to me while teaching me the tactic of earning and pricing.
I find it so true, after 3 months of work I slowly adapted into career.
It's a business thing.
There's still so much more to learn and so much changes need to amend to this tradition business.
i am glad that actually I am there to help up.
I am really into it put the university thing aside for a little while
There's a big plan ahead. I am quite thrill about this.
Lik my mum said it's about achievement of numbers more to degree certificate achievement.
not only to sell and learn about the product, but more to customer, demand, communication, learn about new potential project client, supplier, managing internally and externally.
I find that you got to sell ideas, information more to product itself.
I hope I'm there at the right time, I am the right person, to make things better.
I really want to do this.
"Never look down on what you'r doing, You don't know what you'r capable of."

It's time

It's time to awaken the dawn

It's time to live.

It's the time of my life

.

Hey Look down

Hey, different view up here.

I could just watch the streets light for a long hour

everything seems so small like a toy

even our tiny little problem could be shrink like a tiny tiny one

view up there just some kind of relief

everything just felt so right in my life.

yea..I'd crossed over

Yea.

"if you want to live in the moment

live in the moments that throw."

He meant it for good.

I did keep on thinking about "what if" game

what if I am in the university now

what if I could go away now

what if this is the wrong way I'm heading

what if.....

through the struggle that I am juggled with, I need more than courage.

but just FOCUS on the present

"Wherever you are, BE ALL THERE"

.We always shout to seek understanding? Don't we?

in the end it's about myself.. Heloo can't you hear me"

Love,

Estee

There's a moment I kept thinking why me?

is sacrifice equal to loss?

I don't know.

but I know I have to.

Love,

Estee

HI, me !

.I miss "me" so much.

It was miserable last week

insecure, not peaceful, so sick with almost

why do I do that to me?

Yerrppp I wasn't that kind of person who you think I am, dude.

tilt my head up high and keep on moving

don't mess with me,

I've met myself yesterday.

Don't be an empty book.
write your rules in and it's about yourself.
I shall recompose my own book.

One.First

One.First.
The only.....The first....
First sight..... The only One.......

Was it love?
It's just one affection.

The Only deepest affection on the only one.

the only you

seeking out you'll lose

never seek something from outside

to fulfill what's empty inside

you would loose your grip

look it's already in your hand.

there's still someone holds you

when you'r about to fall

所有的伤痛都有愈合的一天,

绝望也有终止的那一天,

伤愈痛,

我们就能变得更成熟

left a side

I think there's a waste on time to put hope on something that's not working
I'm feeling weird inside tonight.
He thought me never ever gave in so easily.
there's someone who you should put more affort than a nobody.
the accidently burn and cut on my finger reminds me this lesson learned.


我是傻瓜. this is the second time.

hunt

原来还是那个我

I don't cry anymore

I don't painting for help anymore

not because I am getting any tougher.

not because grown up

I think it's the coldness and ignorance

about every hardships started to hunt me since the beginning of the year

dramas, I am so sick of that anymore

sigh.........................please let me gasp for a breath.

for me

I need sometime to be alone

spend sometime for me, just me

no phone calls..texting

to dance by myself,

swim, cook, watch series, read.

sleep in early

Bye social life, I will be staying in for tomorrow.

Contradicting

Went to the cancer hospital, it's really really sad to see that when during the joyful season and there's still people who are suffering from sickness,

the only wishes they ask for this year it's simple as

" Peace, good health and .....................love"

God please heal the sick people, esp their souls.

I can't imagine the torture of loneliness when you need someone to stay beside when you need them the most.

Everything felt right when LOVE around.

Oh happy day

It's always good when you have best friend around you

who sing with you

who shared the same interest as you

who share your food, Frozen yogurt

who share your dream.

Thankful.

I had a great day

Oh today is my happy day !!

conscience

Self-conscious reminds us to keep our feet on the ground

whenever you are about to fly.

Self-pity and blame ain't going to help in any sense.

Excuses and whining is just plain stupid before action comes first.

"The way you look at me and smile it's just plain weird i think
it reminds me of my childhood.
please don't do that
there shouldn't be anything in between us"

Sunset Bistro

" A time to tear down and a time to build"

I will always remember this place ......"sunset bistro"

a place where we used to sit and catch the last glimpse of the sun.

It used to be a place full of laughter, chattering now has become an empty land.

the tree was full of beautiful flickering lightings, not anymore.

It has become soundless now

we could say that's life.

it's too fast

It's kind of sad indeed.

Happy sunday. 6969696969

After six days of work you need to do is just laid back and

think nothing about work, family

Like this place where it have sea, pool side, music, breeze.

Less crowded, less noise

My favourate hang out place of all.

Happy seventh day people, rest well !

cheers !

intimidated

Please don't bug me while I am resting
leave me alone
please ...... Just shut up.

sepia girl

" I am not that little girl who used to stomp my feet and

cry loudly whenever things went wrong"

.....est.
you just have to hold your tears back when your heart is breaking,

say a prayer, wipe your tears, compose yourself

that's what a grown up girl would do.

THINK

With Love,

Estee

shout.distance

Don't shout
shouting creates distance
arguement started when there's a distance in between, we shout because we cannot hear each other anymore, our heart draws apart from each other.
the louder it is, the further it is.
"Sorry for what I just did"
this is a small reminder for myself.
better to keep your mouth shut whenever you are angry.

" Better a patient man than a warrior,

a man who controls his temper than one who takes a city"

New inspiration

With love,

Estee.

everyone has his own life, so live up yours !!!

destiny recite

I just need a shoulder to lean on now
to reasure me, to support me, to hold on me.
to tell me "it will always get better...there will be sunny days after storm"
especially now I have to be strongest in the family
I've prayed to God to help me to show me my future through his goodwills
but not through any bad thing happen.
since He already decided for me and make it so clear.
I can't say no anymore
I got no option now, do I.
I am unprepared, mom to be like you.
what shall I do?
My option is just stand firm, grip firmly to his will take a leap of faith.

She is pretty amazing

I adore butterfly a lot recently.

The different design and colors it's just so amazing.

"Everyone of them wearing different clothes which made from the same designer."

I have a dream,... A nice garden with a lot of beautiful fairies hoping from roses to roses.

A garden which I could spend my whole day there just to dance with the butterflies.

I love betterflies.

Hide and seek

"有时,我也像故事的小男孩一样,

一方面希望不被找到,抱有自我的空间,

一方面由害怕被遗忘的寂寞."

Let it be 2011

Always ready to expect the unexpected

Always be true to myself

THINK throughly. Logical then only comes emotional.

that's my resolution of 2011

=)

Let it go, let it be

Let the stranger be the stranger.

It's time

to lift it all behind and

LIVE.

bye to the stranger of 2010.

"boston".bye

hi,2011

Bye, 2010.

Hello, 2011

"Write it on your heart that

everyday is the best day in the year"