Sometimes I would blame and asking myself, why it is so hard for me to cope with the person which have totally opposite of me. Or the people which makes me wonder how could they be like that ..............

I found a new way ............

Be thoughtful and understanding ...........

Forgive and Hold On ......................................

I am asking God let me to be more understanding and thoughtful ..

KAMSIAH ~

Superb !!! YES !!! hahahahahaha tomorrow will be 30th

Just now my mom walks in my room and give me extra money for MAY !!!

My goodness so touch ..........muacksss!!!

Thank God.. I think she knows that I need a pair of Converse Shoes (because my old sneaker shoes already broken) ..and a Adidas Cap !!

sadly .. I don't think I gonna use the money for Converse, i think I would just take my shoe for the cobbler ...and I don't think the adidas cap is what I really need ...

see ~~~~ finally bad girl gone good !!!

actually I am happy not because of the extra money ... indeed it is because

I felt that my mum know my needs .. And she is a thoughtful women ..

and I'd just asked for once ....only once that I told her :" mom, my shoes broken already"

I didn't said I need a new one ......

i think I am quite fine with coping with money right now ~~ I mean this month (april)

Haih ....but I think I am not a good girl at home la

TADA ! this month got extra bill for my parents ..

extra phones bill from me

and extra summons !!!!!!

and extra worries when I've always comes back late at night ...

Haih ... I am such a ungrateful and unthoughtful daughter .....=(

Good job ~~~~~~~

I hate summons man !!!! I've 3 for this month ...

my dad said :"it's enough for this month, girl"

plus another bonus summon ...... got another summons for illegal traffic light crossing over ..

congrat !! I got 4 summons for this months .............

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I am an empty container ..

empty ........

empty ................

among the ordinary the most non unique ....

not fancy ....

nothing to be envy ....

nothing to be

sometimes I really wonder why I was born for .......

no matter how much I've trying hard ..

should I stay away from something or someone that makes me non-happy

or stay away from someone that could bring you down

let your confidence felt unworthy......just like some piece of trash.

or I should take it as a challenge or some stepping stone ?

I am lost today....................................................

ID

A person could has a multi-personalities ..

Sometimes without any consent, we would know what we belong to this kind of people

however some characteristics in us like one of my friend said .. " we are born with it "

NO matter how hard we trying to fake it or imitate it, it just doesn't "me" anymore ..

no matter what ..

I believe everyone is unique ... no body was being born without a personality

No one in this world is alike with us

Make it Happen

Now sitting on my table guess what it is Clean ~~~~ although blamed my maid for cleaning my stuff without any consent .. but look ~ the disaster study table has become neat and tidy without any stain and I gotta rearrange my stuff... i just felt like writing a post right now !!

i am a person who would get happy and satisfied very easily ...watch a significant movie, crave some thing for my mouth sake, reading inspiring quotes

BUt i am also a person who is very very emotional .. a non-verbal body language of a person could makes me thinks into very very deep of philosophy and psychological thought ..

when i am having a really really hard moment .. I would not pick up any phones call .. even when my parents call ..I just wanted to be alone. .

Sometimes I really sick of the mood swing stirred my emotion and is kinda hard for me to overcome ...

Some people would thinks that I am a mean person, i knew that sometimes I would just utters which others don't want to hear .. or some words really offensive .. but i am a person who can't hide my feeling or kept some straight forward comment ..

I would just burst it out .. i think sometimes don't measure others by using our own vision ..

Sometimes I express how I felt .. in a right manner .. it could build up something ... not necessary

i think words are neutral .... just the way how we received it and decode it ... .. I just say what I wanted to say . One thing very funny, the words that I expressed it out .. it did not save in my memory anymore .. Sometimes it could be offensive, which I don't recalled what i did .. but the victim could remember for a lifetime. That's something really bad .. but my intention not harmful i guess..and for the victim ..a word for you guys "Take it or leave it ", you could that you'r a victim but for me I am just telling you want you don't want to hear ..it might be somethings that you know but you can't be truthful to yourself...........so i think straightforward is one of my virtue.the lesson I've learned currently is be have faith in who I am and have faith in Christ .

No matter what happen do not lose hope .........

faith is the virtue that I don't want to give up on ..

If you are unsure of your identity, you’ll allow others to pressure you into their molds