uplifting

I can feels the sunshine shone behind my back. it's warming. I like ^^

yea, this is me, that's me. I am unfamiliar who I was for the last couples of days.

I feels uplifting now =)

like Wohooooooooo finally i am back.

bye, pms, bye, emo.

Hi, JUlY

=)

Stay Awake

Coffee - Awaken

something in my life should stay alive

some natural desire and lust should put into death

I'd decided to taken off old self to follow faith

I don't want to waste my lifetime anymore ..

count on mine hours and days ..

I've neglected so much in the past ..

remain ?

the moon looks different every night .....

I have a whole new perception, a different way of looking at things ...

a absolute 100% certainty does not exist .......

I felt much more better ....

way better to accept what thing that couldn't change

sometimes we trying hard to change many thing around us,

tried to give a reason for myself ...

sometimes the only thing that unchanged is "me"

Ah .. I felt much more better

its time for a change

=)

Special Bond

I asked God for a best friend, He gave me more ......

I realized they are always the one who hold on me ....when I am about to fall

especially in college .. everyone said that is really hard to have a true best friend after graduated from high school but ........ I've found !!! through love, respect, honest, understand .. is what we learn from each other ..............

when obstacles come between us, today I've learn that i should put down myself ....

when obstacles lies in front of me, I've learn to listen slowly, think slowly, talk slowly .. if can't just walk away for a moment ...

After the obstacles, I've learn how to be a better friend .. A better person .......

=)

Cycling cyc cyc

cycling alone without concerning about anything

is just drift you apart from all my mind and mood trash

mood swing swing, but look who is going to fix it ............

CROSS ~ CROWN ~ PAIN ~ GAIN

Attempt

Bring out the best in me ..

I got to learn

i think sometimes under some circumstance

people ,mistakes, wrong-doing will blow me apart

but it doesn't stop me to keep learning

Fall and stand up again ..

Inspiration, passion and faith that makes me stronger

withhold what we shouldn't .

and on hold what we trust on ....

bring out the best in me ...as long as no regret and I've tried

a shepherd for the dark place

The Lord is my Shepherd I shall not be in want
............................
He restore my soul.
...............
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I will fear no evil,
for You are with me.
(Psalm 23)

Whatever it is that may troubling me today,
trust in the shepherd who leads in sunshine also leads in shadow of the day.
His presence sustain me.
His care never ever fail.

upbeat.

After 3 days of worsen day dwelling in frustration, wrath, cried out, broke down, tiredness
fourth day, I did smile =)
but at least i'm not gripping on things that happened before, and
not keep dwelling in the pit of problems ....
I know my days could get more harder and tougher
I shall stand firm, and watch how this battle, waging the war in myself.
I shall take a breath, refocus, restore.
I shall get stronger every day =)

Obstacle is not threat, is an opportunity to heal for me to become stronger
don't let worry and discourage cause despair in my soul
don't ever magnify the problems, it cause obstruction on my way to continue
problems stagger me
I was magnified my problems

trying hard to break free
because of stripes i'm healed
I just need to be still
look who belong to this battle

Watch your step

these few day I've stepped Back

The main reason I started to step backward, I think the main reason WAS
because I started to see myself in others eye ..
the thing I scare the most is this feeling
Step backward .... holding back

now
when human in trouble, I think the only refuge is the God and the people surrounding
friends ..
They always care how I feel, How's my mood each day .. i felt grateful
after today cell group, and a accident gathering fellowship ..
I felt so much better .. so much ..
so now ... I hope whenever I started to step backward in life ..
I hope again someone just hold on me ...push me forward ...
through the people around me ...
I want to say the people around me are the angel from God
so don't need to look for the angel .. because they are always around us
everyone around us are angel, black one, the who likes to nag, who care for me, who always call me to love myself more, who always help me, who give me a smile, who encourage me
Although they might not be the perfect angel, but look at myself ..neither do I ..
because I am imperfect, but the special, unique in them, the thing I don't have in me .. just you
is what I admire the most ...so no need to pretend like someone else ..because everything in us are already beautiful .. I like who they are ..God like who I am .. God like who you are.
We can't see where is HIM ..but he already there prepare for us .. everything
Everyone .. Because HE loves every one
So
STEP FORWARD ..LOOK FORWARD ..
I don't want to see myself from others eye again ...
I want to take a BIG STEP and never look back ..

"I was holding back

Now I've come undone

Clearly it's time to make a change
Or i could keep sitting and waste all day
I know that it's time for me to move
I've been given this minute to use

What we do here is just the beginning
New life is starting at every ending
every day could be MINE day "

song of the day -this could be our day (Addison Road)

don't fall too hard .. look up

yesterday I slept at four. Today woke up at 8am, my eyes barely open, pulling my eye harshly to fix in the contact lenses, I've lost my contact lenses, starving, rushing to prepare go to church leading the children to sing, rushing to shop photocopy which need it at the meeting in the afternoon .... still have to update and distribute the paper work, as a secretary in sunday's school teacher which I just finished at 4am in the morning ..wohoo. give me a round of applause .....i'm such a procrastinator .. no body would be 1st procrastinator ever

That's not the most dissapointment part .. the most dissappointing part was the document and papers that I've just photocopy .........after a long discussion ........... become a pile of recycle paper......................................................because they rediscuss the agenda and make amendment regarding the NEW NEW NEW year plan, not using the previous new year plan which I've just photocopy ............. and again appointed to some handle some heavy task ......sometimes I wonder, I am not good even close to loser why I appointed to some task ...can I handle it !!

i'm unhappy felt like why this happen to me ..I've been rushing to finish the papers, in 4am morning, photocopy, distribute, making amendment but now i'm looking at the whole stack of paper .. hahaha .. what am I going to do .....

mood .. 50%

Haih !! after express it out and craving for the food I like .. felt so much better, ... I am going to ZZzzz .. yet tomorrow another new gracious day !! I just hope I could cope with anything unexpected and live as much as I could ...accept my new friend of 2009, his name call "pressure" sometime is better to look upon the sky facing the sunshine
so what !! why should I dwell in the pit of unhappiness
how great the sky, how small I am, why should I worry .. I'm not the one who control
and how small is my worries are and how great is the creator !!
look and I smile again =)

mood - 70%
song: stand up stand up for Jesus