have to do it

Today I take 2 route of bus to work

and I was totally unfamiliar the bus num to reach the destination

but finally although I took the incorrect bus

hence I need to take 30 mins walk reach to destination

Yea, actually I am a person who hates walking so much

but I know I have to go to work. I can't just give up.

under hot weather, with a painful unhealed leg. but i didn't whine.didn't say a words.

just keep walking ..........

I am happy, when I reach the destination my face put on a big big smile =)

yea this is me

I am a person who seeking

self-worth and acceptance from others

I know that's bad.

but yea ....

I want to know myself more.

conclude 2009

sometimes seriously I should just have to let it go ...

no matter what ...

these few days keep reflecting about 2009, the past. The past me. and who I gotta be in 2010.

Sometimes we keep holding on instead of let it go....it's because of our own expectation... the hope that we keep holding. a false one. no matter the past, the future expectation which seems like not right, it's within a choices.

I think I am a person who withhold something and keep give excuses and the reason why I should not let go instead of just letting go".

let go without regret and change another perspective we would realized....

yea that's breakthrough..... let it go it's a time to move on.

P.s :to conclude everything in 2009, in one sentences.

I get to know myself more than 2008, I finally get to know who am I.

hard to make a climb at the first place

dare not make any promises anymore.Unsure of the time that I would let someone down again and again. I think I haven’t forgive myself for I've done. Now and then I discover that I am a person very hard to make a move,I hesitate everytime, i stumble before I take a move. seriously just don't know why I am not a person who I used to be. I am afraid of commitment and giving promises......not because of others but I have no faith onto myself............ I would just fear and fred ........I am fear of taking any risk and keep thinking that what if I failed again and what left it's just hurt and broken heart ? do I have the courage to pick up my own shattered heart again?