unselfishness

Once you realized that love is not that "real"

don't keep holding on ........

maybe it's because of unprepared, fear, time, space....

letting it go .... let myself get back to one who I wanna to be...

A chance for each other to move on....

to the next stop ... discover more about love.....

conclude 2009

sometimes seriously I should just have to let it go ...

no matter what ...

these few days keep reflecting about 2009, the past. The past me. and who I gotta be in 2010.

Sometimes we keep holding on instead of let it go....it's because of our own expectation... the hope that we keep holding. a false one. no matter the past, the future expectation which seems like not right, it's within a choices.

I think I am a person who withhold something and keep give excuses and the reason why I should not let go instead of just letting go".

let go without regret and change another perspective we would realized....

yea that's breakthrough..... let it go it's a time to move on.

P.s :to conclude everything in 2009, in one sentences.

I get to know myself more than 2008, I finally get to know who am I.

prep 2010

In the New Year, be sure to LIE, CHEAT, DRINK, SWEAR and STEAL more than you did last year.

LIE back and relax just a little more this new year. Let a little more life happen to you without so much worry.

CHEAT failure. Don't be afraid to try something new because you think you may fail. It is through failure that we learn the most valuable lessons.

DRINK from the fountain of knowledge. Many people around you have already been down roads you are about to travel. Learn from mistakes they have made. Take what they have learned and use it.

SWEAR to do your best. All the time, in every situation. That is all anybody will ever ask.

STEAL a little time for God. Everyday take a little more time to develop your relationship with God.

relief relief

bbig relief !!! Thank God I've passed my web wheeee ....... finally done with Html..css no more nightmares.

i actually did not expected it to pass and It's like "B" never ever expected that happen to any of the computer, IT thing !!!!!!!!

because I don't really hand in all my assignment and the assignments that I handed up it's not on time, like really like super duper uber late!!!

however the subject that expected to get a flying colours, did not. desktop publihsing, design all the brochure, newsletter, posters which I think compare to web I put more effort. but it let me down !!

never mind. at least I got a relieved now ... sighh ...

Thanks to Veen dee and fern helping me out in of the web assignments. The final group projects which we do while the day before bangkok, during bangkok still rushing assignments, after bangkok !!!

and they keep scolding me :" I tell you est, you better not to retake web that's whole lot of shite to do, sent now !!!! "

things that regretted didn't buy in bangkok

1. Headbands .. penang so expensive

2. Dress..

3. Photo frame big one.

4. coconut Ice cream !!!!!!!!

I am actually tiny tiny tiny

discover myself by reflecting what I've done everyday .....

discovering yourself and others everyday I could see clearly who am I ...

and I am not that great after all ...

it's good to have a good expectation, an ego and superego within ourselves

but c'mon let's face the truth

face nakedly to ourself

" we are actually nothing, not that great after all "

I discover "when we magnify ourself, make "me" look bigger.. I am actually the foolish person ever, the pride and self-importance controls all things.... "humble become so small... other people become so so so tiny"

how could I keep from singing

All of us have a longing for something more.

No matter how hard we try to appear self-sufficient, sooner or later we run out of something essential.

Isolation,loneliness, and fear of death lead me to acknowledge our need for a saviour especially for our soul.

But where can you find Him? just like the people who tried to find him in the palace, but not in a manger........ who will expect a son of God born in a place where the sheep laid. a stable, a manger.

Jesus is not a historical person, or the main character in christianity's story, legend.

Open your heart and you'll experienced him.

Christianity is a singing faith because it's not about religion. It's about a love affair. It's about a relationship with God. He loves you so much that He sent His Son as a baby in a manger.