I am

.I am haughty in a way, i've being disrespectful. Bad though.

fear

I've discover something new about myself:

I am fear when stranger look into my eyes, it scares my smiles off. I just avoid the eyes contact.

people said that your eyes is the vision of your world inside.

escapee to fantasy world

Have you ever felt that you want a self-escape as in escape from everything

every self-dissatisfaction, frustration, reality, problems

and just want to lose control ....and have really want to indulge into"fun"without hesitation

because don't want to face yourself, and lied to yourself that " I just wanna had some fun"

but actually i am feeling empty inside.

and the first thing I woke up in the morning

I'd realized no matter what i am still here standing on my world

with a headache and buzzing ears.

and I think that wow. ... it's totally different person i was last night and this morning.

just like have a personality disorder between morning and midnight.

just happened to me like countless times

but .........I just realized ...........

it's just about the great escape from "me" and get lost in a fantasy.

and still have to pick up and face it after all