walking in the fast pace of life goal and to-dos fill the mind of everyone
i admitted absolutely ignoring something good in life
I striving to reach certain goal
keep moving without realizing the word PEACE being thrown away somewhere.
who knows today now I stumble unexpectedly
mind occupy by unnecessary worries and lack of peace inside
now walking crippled, which means change a thought and then enjoy the slow pace

"KEEP CALM & Look Into the bright side..............."

发掘

慢慢的去聆听自己。－这样 " =( " - 不是我。
真的我只是一个有想法，单纯的我。=)
请记得，接纳， 倾听自己，慢慢去发掘自己想要的是什么，该舍弃的想法又有哪些。
这些真的需要勇气倾听自己。
事情没有绝对，只有面对。
最近在想着“离开安逸 ” 的想法。
安逸－comfort zone.
It is the comfort zone, mentally comfort zone or the physically comfort zone.
How far and what are the changes I need to set on goal to move on.

=) . Curve your life.

We just got to let it go ...
" Let it go of the pessimistic side of you, face whatever circumstances with joyful heart and a peaceful mind.. embrace the best of you during the critical moment." 
“let the light shine upon the small little dark place in you"

That's how I learn today. SMILE is the best curve in all circumstance
=)

和好

Before shutting your eyes everyday
ask yourself : "How are you today "

人要学习每天与自己和好“

Saved

"我走着走着，沿着一路的路途
一样的风景，走了两年，
我迷路了，不懂要往哪，
自己是谁，自己又可以成为谁。"

"无论如何我要带着信心走下去“

Sloppy

"Never get by with sloppy living.  Sloppy Living. The nature of human it's the sluggishness inside of us. Sluggishness and sloppy living will eaten us slowly and become a habit then become a character. The strength inside of us, the thing that we capable to do and called to do........ Awake. "

"Being"

There's a song in Mandarin the lyrics description like these


"How could we to have a rainbow
How could we to embrace the summer wind
The stars on the skies laughing the people on earth
never getting enough, not contented enough. "

"怎麼去擁有 一道彩虹 ,怎麼去擁抱 一夏天的風,
天上的星星 笑地上的人
 總是不能懂 不能知道足夠."

Contentment ain't about not being ambitious enough to persue the earthly thing. It is about a peace and calmness of being thankful and appreciate the things we already have.

The people who listen, who hold you, who cares about you. The unfailing love that family given. 

I believe

I am just a girl who look strong on the outside, but actually I am vulnerable many people said thats just the mask you wearing to hide something. Yes I admit that, the weakness not to look into my eyes. Now I am pursuing something, at least for now I now what I want it's more to soul and spirit. Only the toughness inside and the training inward make us real strong. For the past I've been out of rule break the rule of love, deeply fall in love once. Just once, broken once, that's enough. I want to find something more this year onwards, it might be to find back the core of my life. I knew that I am not a person who need to worry about the material things, pay bills. I am thankful for that, but I knew who I made to be since I was young, I want to become a career women like my mum. It has been a long time I forgot since when I don't write anymore. Maybe this is the time I've decided to face me, myself. Have the courage slowly discover what I want bit by bit, pieces by pieces. “我要成为外柔内坚的女人。”

Pondering about the thought of leaving and university

We tend to look around the people around us, and started to get really nervous when we are not on the same track as they are. 

I really need faith to strengthen my weakness and the infirmity. 

maybe I  should letting go of the struggle, my doubt, my shaken decision. 

Accept the current circumstances and embrace it...strive for it. 

" He shall strengthen my weakness"

The art of losing

it has been a very long time I wasn't here to write about I, me, Myself. It's not because of busyness but simply I was in the "art of losing" 
I misses here very much which I am using my photo inspiration and words...
here and now.. I have a different insight, start to THINK and start to live. 
this is a story of Estee each and every moment that I treasured no matter neither the journey it's rough or smooth.  By His grace i am free again...I am alive again. 

what's love

Once when i was a little girl, we dreamed about marriage ...
the prince and princess happily ever after story.
in adulthood, the bubbles pops, marriage become so dissenting.
it might sound scary from the bad testimonials of others.
I would say now:

" I believe in marriage... beloved and to be in the love commitment of my lifetime"

what if I say:" love ain't about feelings"

" Love ain't about lust and desires"all of these would fade

Love is a verb

Love is an attitude

Love is a commitment

Love is giving

Agape is Sacrifing love

"I believe in love once again"

Don't become a stranger

we were once young and simple little child get to know each other
primary school, childhood, secondary, high school
we might feel that it's all different after all departure ...
we from good friends become like stranger after so long
is our friendship has become tweak and weak
is that any love language that we could share rather than " what are you doing now? when you graduate? where you work? how was everything? " "please take care"
I feel that shallowness of love and the unconcern to care.
as time flew, i hope we'd change, changed to be a better friend, a friend which we make new memories each and every moments no matter which stage of life we all are.
my dear friend "Don't become a stranger, okay ?"

it's easy to forget

how easy it is for me to forget

what I'd love to do about the passion

who I used to be could be much more happier

the commitment I've made

"how easy it is for us to forget the time we shared

how easy it is for us to forget how to love

how easy it is for us to forget how to smile =)

it's easy to forget, but it's even harder not to love "
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decision

life is all about choices. more choice. choices choices.
I was a person who always wonder what I want what I want
look upon others
but what I really needs
the attitude after I've made up my mind.
love the decision, believe the decision and trust in the decision
what I am doing about career now
真正影响人的一生不是当初的选择,而是自己对选择的态度 =)

freedom

i forgot about the principle
90 > 10
90 is the attitude how you control over the circumstances instead of let it taken over.
i was wrong the one who keep on striving for happiness and freedom. but the true freedom is to feel freedom by itslf. not to strive
追逐自由的人永远得不到自由。学会自在才会自由。

time

During we are still young, we would never realized the pace of time
we thought that we are still have plenty of time. Plenty of time to struggle, to fool around., to make mistake, to be rebellious, to be chasing all freedom we never had during childhood. we fall in love deeply, get a heart broken, until now know what's the pain hurts. We thought that is okay to make mistake, to be a little bit irresponsible.
It don't take a night for all of us to grow.
It don't take a day to know what's important in our life.
What important for me now is
My faith, spiritually.
My family
Me and others I am still learning
My time priority
My promise to myself in my life.

Neglected

I am a selfish person
Why is always me me me.
I try not to be
Wearing others shoes to be more considerate
Give me the eyes of seeing other people needs
Give the a pair of ears which listen to the insight of others
Give me a pair of hands which act on others
Give me a pair of legs to walk with them.
Give me a heart to love others.

Let me open my heart to reach others and to be reached.

Stuck in

remember that

One thing that others do to touch your heart today
Went for coffee and the baristas remember the normal habit that I always do
" Get a cup of warm water"
the kindness and little act that would make people feel imp
Do something to make other people feel important in their life today.
=)